The quarter ends Friday and ten of my students are failing. That's a little less than half the class. They are not failing because they lack the skills necessary to be successful in my class; they are failing because I lack the homework assignments with which to give them points.
I reminded them two weeks ago that grades would be due soon and gave them each their current grade. I told them that they should make up their work. Nobody came to me to get missing assignments. I reminded them last Monday that eleven people were failing, and that they have exactly one week to make up any missing work. I gave each of them their current grades again. A total of six people came to see me about their missing assignments. I am curious to see how many assignments I will receive today. I am skeptical that I will get many. I feel bad saying that because that makes me feel as though I have low expectations for my students, but based on the current pattern of not turning in assignments, I will be happy if any of the ten makes up their work.
One one hand, I do not want to fail any student. On the other hand, if a student refuses to put in the work necessary to succeed, even after gaining the academic tools to do so, the student deserves to fail. I want to prepare my students to succeed in life. Maybe I failed miserably this quarter. Maybe I am oblivious to their academic needs. How do I know whether I am oblivious? If I teach a lesson, I assign homework, classwork, or tests to assess what they learned. Assessment is very diffficult when students refuse to take the assessments.
One solution might be to not assign homework. However, would that be giving way to low expectations? My students will not do homework, therefore I should accept that bleak reality and do something else? The real world is not like that. As much as I do not want to be a cog in the wheel of capitalism, students live in a capitalist society and must be productive. If they are not productive, they will not survive. I am trying to teach them survival skills. Students will not survive if they cannot perform on the job, whatever their job may be.
Maybe I am preparing them fo life in a capitalist society. As low income students of color, they go to a school that severely lacks resources. It is an alternative high school for students who have been expelled, dropped out, and been arrested, tried, and convicted. These students have had an educational history of being underserved. They are all bright and have all the potential in the world to reach their apex. However, everything works against them -- their lack of wealth, their skin color, their lack of academic skills, their experiences growing up in communities plagued with violence, drugs, and death. I became an educator and youth advocate to help youth succeed in spite of all that works against them. It is difficult to do this, sometimes, as an employee of an institution of capitalism. In order to thrive, capitalism needs people at the bottom. It needs people at the bottom so that the people at the top has something, or someone, to stand on. This society was founded on slave labor. In the absence of slavery, the country has sustained itself with cheap, and sometimes, undercover slave labor. Without that cheap and sometimes slave labor, this country would crumble. At least or socioeconomic system would. I am down for that to happen, but I often feel that I cannot change the system of oppression by working for the system of oppression. As a teacher in a public school, I am an agent of the government. So by having high expectations for my students, am I a double agent?
Monday, March 5, 2007
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For the record, I think you are being entirely too hard on yourself. I admire your deep reflection on your status as as a teacher in a cap. system;however, these thoughts can overwhelm you.
It sounds like your students are benfitting from having a contemplative teacher guiding them through a sea of difficulty. You are not a double agent, but the reality is we are confined, in one form or another, by our circumstances. This fact is not antithetical to notions of idealism and personal integrity... Hang in there and try to focus on what's going well with your class.
As far as the academic specifics of your post, perhaps you might try altering your daily lessons not your expectations. For example, if homework is problem, perhaps you can leave ten minutes at the end of a lesson for students to begin their homework. This is a form of scaffolding and might work with your kids. I think as new teachers we are all beginning to understand that each class has different dynamics and different needs. It sounds like your kids are at a different phase of their academic/personal lives that might necessitate taking two steps back before they can move forward. Ultimately, your presence may be one of the only positive things in their lives. This job can be really painful at times, but, as I noted earlier, try to take solace in the fact that you are doing the best you can.
And with that, I will close with words of wisdom from the Beastie Boys: lET IT GO, LET YOURSELF FLOW, SOARIN LOW, THAT HITS THE TEMPO. I am not completely sure what that means, but I believe it to be strangely applicable. Hope it brings a smile to your face.
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